Today, I just want to blog about how I feel when I didn’t do street photography or use manual film camera for more than a few weeks.
I lose the momentum.
See, I think I met with unpleasant rejection or being reprimanded on the street maybe a few weeks ago. I can’t remember what happened but I kind of don’t feel like taking risks anymore because it makes my mind tired. I just want to stay in my comfort zone for a while.
And I also think my preferred version of street photography is to be discreet and shoot day-to-day life candid, and not right up to people’s face (like the one below). That’s a meaningless photo. But it also requires a lot of patience to hunt for that meaningful photo, which I clearly know I lack.
At the same time, due to holiday mood (Chinese New Year), I didn’t have the drive to do anything such as reading up, go shoot after work, etc. Unfortunately, I was hooked on a Netflix drama. So, I spent most of my evenings binge watching the series instead of thinking about ideas, read photobooks, or do anything useful.
So, few days ago when I decided it’s time to end the laziness, I picked up my Nikon FM2 and went out for a shoot. I felt quite off track. Previously, I could accustomed to adjusting the settings on spot but now I just feel very off. Like I had no clue which settings to use. Furthermore, the thick-skinned that I had grown a little for street photography has also been ‘scraped off’. I was so scared on the street!!
So, to improve, is to keep the momentum going, is to be consistent. It is the same for everything. For studying/revising, once you have totally slacken off, it is very hard to build up the drive. For athlete, once you have stopped training for too long, your body loses the stamina.
Of course, it is perfectly alright to take a break. There’s always a middle path to everything like how Buddha realised this ‘theory’. He realised if the guitar’s string is too tight, it will snap. If it is too lose, it won’t project good tune. However, a just-nice tightness makes the best sound. Hence, for every-day life, you focus on being on a balance. Not too slack, not too tight up. I need to find my balance in photography and life: to take photos with fair consistence but take a break for something else.