I am full-time Research Associate, I do research on prostate cancer. So the only time I can go out and make photos is before work, after work or during the weekend.
On normal day, if I am not feeling lazy, I would go out and shoot after work. Yes, I bring my camera with me every day. If I am feeling lazy, I would just walk home and laze on my sofa/bed, watch YouTube or read a book.
So today is the day I feel that I have to go out for a walk to take photos.
I walked past a bus stop, and I saw an old man leaning his hand against a pole and waited for bus. I could visualise a picture: a man with hand gesture and a bored face standing and waiting for bus. And such photo must be shot in Black and White to bring out the soul.
Too bad, I was carrying a film camera today, the sturdy Nikon FM2. What made me reluctant to press the shutter was that I was too near, I fear being scolded. I fear what others would think of me. I also wasn’t confident that I would be quick to adjust the manual focusing. If I was carrying my Fuji X-pro2, I would have pressed the shutter. Nonetheless, I think ‘fear’ is the ultimate obstacle.
Moving forward, I saw a group of Bangladeshi workers waiting for their bus to bring them back to their hostel. Among them, two men (one Chinese one Bangla) caught my attention as they were both wearing the orange safety vest jackets, squatting at a corner and talking. I didn’t press the shutter. Once again, fear. I fear they would dismiss me rudely or shout at me.
Challenge: Just try
Then I moved on, I saw another Bangla man sitting on the floor, eyes glued to his phone. There were many more men around me. My initial thought was ‘They will think I am crazy’. But I went ahead and shoot. It was during that few split seconds I used to adjust manual focus and exposure that the subject raised his head and saw me. I panicked ‘Will he shout?’. Surprisingly, he didn’t even move away or shield his face. He just continued to look at his phone.
I was surprised! Usually people would react, they would hide their face, stir or look awkward. But this man, he just hacked care! hahaha! I know the shot won’t be one of my best, but it will always reminds me to just try.